A beautiful day.....

It has truly been a beautiful day today, kids have been cute, weather has been glorious and then ......I went to the gym!
I had every intention of going to my first Spin class - for those of you not in the know its a class you take in a room full of exercise bikes the idea being that you all copy the instructor sprinting etc (I had to ask!)
Unfortunately for some reason my optimism seems to have deserted me and suffering a large lack of self confidence when I looked in through the window and saw all the "fitter than me" people in the room I chickened out!
In my defence I then beat myself up about it while I did 6500m on the rower and spent 15 minutes on the bike - both on a harder setting than I was supposed to!
Suprisingly I think Im going to find it quite emotional doing this. When it hurt today I found myself thinking of all the chemo our daughter went through and I think that will be a really good way to make myself get on with it although perhaps with some tears. (Maybe next time I'll be able to think of that when I need to walk into the spin room - at least I dont have to cope with having no hair) - compared to her attitude during her treatment Im severely lacking today ! I'll make sure I do better next time and stop whinging.