Maybe it was because I was listening to different music, maybe Im just in one of those girlie monthly moods or maybe its because as Ive just realised its the anniversary or our daughters diagnosis again.
I swear I dont think about it consciously at all (2 more kids, remission and life has a habit of keeping me occupied!) but without fail every year Ive had a real downer out of the blue, totally unexplainable and then I realise what the date is or someone else asks me whether it still affects me.
Strange as it is, out of all the times, procedures, tests and treatment, the diagnosis is the only time I cant think of without being reduced to a complete wreck. To coin a phrase I guess it was "the day our life fell apart".
Im ok though because I can quickly move forward to where we are now, but I think what freaks me out is thinking of all the people who are at that point now, as I write this and you read it.
Thats why we need CLIC Sargent. Without our CLIC nurse, respite care, a week away for just the 5 of us and regular meetings that help us all stay sane it would have been totally unbearable (instead of just being unbearable for a bit) ;-/
On a lighter note...............
I have to say a great big "YEAAHHHHH" to Sue and her team mates who did the 3 peaks at the weekend for Cancer Research.
I have been so inspired Im thinking of doing it next year maybe.........any other takers?
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